lovesick tragedy

today i dreamed a dream.
a lovesick tragedy.
you see i saw - what could have been-
had i been
more a juliet
to you my romeo.
loving love,
not loving me instead.
i dreamed a dream today,
a lovesick cacaphony
i thought i saw what i saw
a tragic romance.
where juliet was no more
then romeo
a loving whore
you see i saw my dream today,
a lovesick tragedy
where you love me
and i loved thee
a tragedy for sure
a travesty
of love
a brutal
love
no more

2 menthols

it feels like its a 4 am rain.

i smoked 2 menthols, yet the pain of you is still fresh in my mouth.
my lip curls as i recall your words...

never the first...always the last...

i dont get you. i never could. the memories are fleeting
as i dream of a rain.

i feel like a 4 am rain

we smoked by the tracks as we wait for boston.
i walked in the cold to see you not there.
my heart breaks as i hear your last words...

never the first.... always the last...

what do you think...of me and you?
is this a game of pin the ache on me..
my lungs are bleeding from a snowstorm sprint.
i watched you leave...me with you.

i recalled that time.
that long ago fate when blue was sunshine
and red was love.
and you said...

never the first...always the last.

i smoked 2 menthols as the trees shaked hello.
my eyes were burning. but i wouldnt give you that
satisfaction.

its a 4 am rain
on a midnight smoke.

and you were

always the first....always the last.

Reflection

As I have walked along
with my enemy
hand in hand,
As I learn the crimes that sing my song,
with my enemy
here we stand
As I see what I have known all along
with my enemy
hand in hand
I see my enemy
I see my friend
all in the same
Reflection

saw you see me

i want to know; what you know
i want to be; what you are
i want to dream; what you dream
without you life isn't what it seems.
i see you watching there
i see you sit and stare
i saw you see me and know; you were watching me too.
you sigh inside,
you cry and hide; me too
you lie and tried; to cloud my mind
i said i'm not your kind
but i know the truth
i've been watching you...
see you watching there
i see you sit and stare
i saw you see me and know; you were watching me too.

oceaned heart

i close my eye and what
i see
is an ocean wave crashing
over me
in my wounds
left behind
are shards of pain
of another kind
slits of salt that
burn and fester
like poisned love of
hatred's nectar
i open my eyes and what
i see
are salted wounds
in the heart of me

cry

god that wreaked me
tore me apart
now im sitting on the floor
holding my bleeding heart
why wasn't i strong
why was i wrong
why wait so long
to bring me down
pull me apart
i'm left sitting
with my dying heart
why wasn't i strong
why was i worng
why wait so long
to make me cry?

forever and always

Opening my eyes
looking to the skies
I think of you
and all you do
I know why
my eyes now cry
They're crying for you
dieing for you
waiting for you to see
how beautiful life can be
So open your eyes
Dry your tears
Look at the skies
And drown your fears
I'm always there
with all my love and care.
forever and always
Concerned and feeling
my love'll leave you reeling
So take what I've got
i know it's not a lot
But something's
over nothing
and love is more than ever

all for you

You know what the funny part is?
do You even know what love is?
do You even know how i cry?
do You even know how i lie?
do You even know how every day i die?
every day i live a lie
every day do my eyes cry
all for You
all for You

for me too
because i'm stuck in Your spell
i'm caught in Your web
at first i just fell,
into love,
at least i thought it was
but You don't see me
You don't feel me
You don't even care
i thought Your love was a net to catch me
but no
it's all for You
all for You

it's full of lies
both Yours and mine
You to me
me to me
You to me
i am sick of trying
i am sick of lieing
and i am sick of dieing
all for You
all for You
i try to ignore the pain
i tried to just stay the same
but i can't not with You
and all You do
how can i
when You lie every day
and i cry every day
when i lie every day
and i die every day
all for You
all for You

You know what the funny part is?
You don't even know
all i do is
all for You
all for You

everybody

im hurt
im scared
im angry
im sad
im alone

im free of pain
im fearless
im calm and controlled
im happy
im surrounded

im never
im unchanging
im pessimistic
im suspicious
im passive

im forever
im a chameleon
im optimistic
im trusting
im agressive

im tame
im dull
im ordinary
im uncaring
im tragic

im wild
im crazy
im exotic
im caring
im laughter

im you
im me
im him
im her
im we

everybody